marriage · Motherhood · Musings

Waiting for the slap – thoughts on transition and homecoming

A few days ago my family finished the front end of a whirlwind move from Montreal to Toronto. A month ago we didn’t know we’d be coming home. Then God opened a bunch of doors in such rapid succession that we could barely keep up. Cue three weeks to pack, organize all the details of… Continue reading Waiting for the slap – thoughts on transition and homecoming

Faith · Motherhood

A follow up to “I want to quit my job, by a SHM”.

Earlier this week I wrote about wanting to quit my job as a stay at home mom. Some stuff has happened since then that has changed me a little bit, and I hope will change me more as the days go by. But I hesitate to share because I’m worried about alienating my readers who… Continue reading A follow up to “I want to quit my job, by a SHM”.

Motherhood

Nursing picture and portraits of motherhood – the story of my 4th trimester bodies photo shoot

Here they are, the rest of the pictures from my session. I love CJ’s bright eyes in the portrait of just the two of us. And I am still processing what my body and face really look like in the nursing pic and the headshot. I do love the strength, movement and comfort captured in… Continue reading Nursing picture and portraits of motherhood – the story of my 4th trimester bodies photo shoot

Motherhood

Why I’m taking my clothes off on Thursday – 4th Trimester Bodies Project

In two days I will strip down to my underwear and pose for a picture. I’m participating in the the 4th Trimester Bodies Project, the brainchild of Chicago mom and photographer Ashlee Wells, a series of portraits showcasing what mothers’ bodies look like. Like hundreds of women who have all ready been photographed for the… Continue reading Why I’m taking my clothes off on Thursday – 4th Trimester Bodies Project

Mental Health · Motherhood

Pregnancy, panic, guilt and anxiety – PART II

Two days ago I wrote about the onset of anxiety and panic attacks during my third trimester. I ended on a trip to the maternity emergency room where an OB, a social worker and a psychiatrist helped me make a plan to tackle the problem. This post is a list of the different aspects of… Continue reading Pregnancy, panic, guilt and anxiety – PART II

Mental Health · Motherhood

Pregnancy, panic, guilt and anxiety – PART I

I have complained a lot this pregnancy. I have allowed these eight or so months to be defined by the relentless nausea of the first trimester, the exhaustion of the third and the tear-inducing challenge of our schedule during the second trimester. I’ve been wrapped in “survival mode” as I tried to navigate living in… Continue reading Pregnancy, panic, guilt and anxiety – PART I